There are Men

There are men out there who will respond to your text messages. Men who will initiate conversations because they simply can’t wait to see what you’ll say next. There are men who will never be too busy or too preoccupied to wish you good morning, regardless if you’re a country or a block away. Men who remember to call when they say they will – because they want to – and those who surprise you with their curiosity about your sometimes monotonous days. There are men who aim to be the last person you talk to before you sleep and the first name you see on your screen when you rise. Men who show up on time – or even early – men who are genuinely excited to see you.
There are men who want to go on dates. Real dates. Men who want to take you out to their favorite restaurant and will never expect you to pay, but always appreciate the gesture. There are men who want to talk to you for longer than one drink after work, and longer than what’s enough to get you upstairs. There are men who you won’t have to convince to see you. Men who aren’t purely motivated to be your sexual company, but just love being around you. There are men who won’t wait three days — or even three hours– to ask you out again. Men who have grown past games and cryptic messages that you don’t have time to decode. There are men who simply, truly just want to get to know you.
There are men who want to hold your hand in public. Men who enjoy walking around department stores shopping for things they can’t afford but love the feeling of your tiny fingers interlaced with their adorably-bony knuckles. There are men who love sitting next to you on the downtown train just so they can look at your face, even if they notice the uneven lines and imperfect skin in the terrible lighting, because they can’t imagine another way to spend their Saturday afternoon. Men who wish they could capture the wonder on your face when you see a new part of the city you didn’t know you loved, but now do. Men who want to show you off to the strangers on the street because they find you so incredibly intoxicating. There are men who are happy to be seen by your side, thankful to be someone you chose to roam about town with.
There are men who want to be your boyfriend. Who are totally excited to introduce you as their girlfriend to their friends, to their families, to the women who try to pick them up in bars. Men who aren’t unavailable, who are ready for a relationship, who aren’t ripe with excuses why the timing or the situation, the feeling or the possibility just isn’t right.  Men who don’t blame yesterday on their immature inability to develop something today and imagine tomorrow. There are men who wouldn’t pass on the chance to be yours because they know how amazing – how special – how superbly wonderful you are, and that they’re lucky you want to be with them, and only them. There are men who don’t hesitate on title changes or commitment. Men who want to grow with you and learn with you, love you the best they can, be with you as long as you allow them to. Men who don’t reply “thank you” when you say those precious three words. There are even men who say that incomparable phrase first, not second.
There are men who are proud of your successes, not intimidated by them. Men who are amazed by your determination and passion, who see the things inside of you that you can’t notice yet, or decide to ignore. There are men who believe in your future as much as they believe in the world you can create together. Men who want to witness your bad times and your good, be there when you fail and celebrate when you find that sense of belonging that we all look for, but never know quite what it means until we stumble across it. There are men who know to buy yellow tulips and kiss your forehead when you’ve had a rough day, men who remember you don’t ever take advice in the worst of situations, but you’ll want to hear it in the morning. Men who remind you of all the things to come and promise to be there when you get to the top of that mountain you’re climbing. There are men who really mean that and are there at the peak. And in the valley.
There are men who listen. Men who linger on each and every word you say because they know they will never know too much about you, and are intrigued to always learn more, regardless of how long they’ve known you. There are men who have the ability to put your needs before their own, who remember the first time they noticed something different about you. Men who like the way you look right after a long shower or a night run, when you’re dressed to go out and when you’re in your sweats from college. Men who see your insecurities but find them only a small part of what makes you beautiful. There are men who will remember your birthday, the day you met, the moment they knew they loved you and when you made them want to be a better person. There are men who love your thoughtful heart as much as they’re turned on by your soft body. Men who know how hard you like it, what part of your neck gets you going and that sometimes, you really just need to be spooned until you fall asleep. There are men who will accept you for whatever you are, whoever you are, whenever you decide to be that person in that place. Men who will stand by you – and fight for you – because they know you’re worth it. Because they know you’d do the same for them.
There are men who will spend weeks, months or even a year planning the perfect way to propose. Men who not only realize how special that moment will be to you, but how important of a story it’ll be to the children you don’t have yet. There are men who want to watch the wrinkles form around your eyes and especially around your mouth, because they’ve spent decades listening to that laugh they love come out of the sweetest smile they’ve ever seen. Men who will leave you notes by your morning coffee or send you sweet – or dirty – text messages at work, even after you’ve been married fifteen years. There are men who will adore all of the things that make you a woman, even when those things bear babies instead of nights of sexual release, even when those things drag instead of rise to occasions. Men who will always remember what you looked like that day you walked toward them in a white gown with glitter on your eyes and the purist of hope in your heart. There are men who truly, honestly, completely will love you.
There are so many men out there. But you’ll never meet them if you don’t let go of the guys you really don’t want to find the men you really deserve. The men who are waiting to meet someone just like you.
Reblogged from loveaddictnyc.com

Power

Lately I have been reading the book; 48 Laws of Power by Robert Greene. It is rumored to be the book that our former President and self proclaimed Professor of Politics loved to borrow heavily from.
I must say its one of the things that attracted me to reading it, I figured that there must be a secret to how farmer number one managed to be so powerful and rule us for 24 straight years.

Most politicians are said to have read it did i say i have no interest in politics and follow it to the letter.

Since am all so generous, but do i say, I will share some of the Laws I found interesting;

Law 2: Never put too much trust in friends, learn how to use enemies especially in work and business.
Be wary of friends  - they will betray you more quickly, for they are easily aroused to envy. They also become spoiled and tyrannical. but hire a former enemy and he will be more royal than a friend, because he has more to prove.


Law 3: Conceal your intentions.
 Keep people off balance and in the dark by never revealing the purpose behind your actions. If they have no clue what you are up to, they cannot prepare a defense. Guide them far enough down the long path, envelop them in enough smoke, and by the time they realize your intention , it will be too late.

Law 4: Always say less than necessary.
 When you are trying to impress people with words, the more you say, the more common you appear, and the less in control. Even if you are saying something banal, it will seem original if you if you make it vague, open-ended, and sphinx-like did i just drop a vocabulary. Powerful people impress and intimidate by Saying less, Kibaki must have read this. The more you say, the more likely you are to say something foolish.

Law 5. So much depends on reputation - guard it with your life.
Reputation is the cornerstone of power. Through reputation alone you can intimidate and win; once it slips, however, you are vulnerable , and will be attacked on all sides. Make your reputation unassailable. Always be alert to potential attacks and thwart them before they happen. Meanwhile learn to destroy enemies by opening holes in their own reputations. Then stand aside and let public opinion hang them. hmmm no wonder the mud slinging in politics!!


Law 16. Use Absence to Increase respect and honour 
Too much circulation makes the price go down: The more you are seen and heard from, the more common you appear. If you are already established in a group. temporary withdrawal from it will make you more talked about, even more admired. You must learn when to leave. Create value through scarcity. this I know only too well


There are 43 more where these came from. I must admit the book is an interesting read and will help you figure what goes on in the mind of the powerful people you know.
My favourite law is Play a sucker to catch a sucker- seem dumber than your mark!!

Signing off...

Jaxon

At this point in my life

 I've done so many things wrong I don't know if I can do right
If you put your trust in me I hope I won't let you down
If you give me a chance I'll try

You see it's been a hard road the road I'm traveling on
And if I take your hand I might lead you down the path to ruin
I've had a hard life I'm just saying it so you'll understand
That right now, right now, I'm doing the best I can

At this point in my life
Although I've mostly walked in the shadows
I'm still searching for the light
Won't you put your faith in me
We both know that's what matters
If you give me a chance I'll try

You see I've been climbing stairs but mostly stumbling down
I've been reaching high always losing ground

I've conquered hills but I still have mountains to climb
And right now right now I'm doing the best I can

Before we take a step
Before we walk down that path
Before I make any promises
Before you have regrets
Before we talk commitment
Let me tell you of my past
All I've seen and all I've done
The things I'd like to forget

At this point in my life
I'd like to live as if only love mattered
As if redemption was in sight
As if the search to live honestly
Is all that anyone needs
No matter if you find it

You see when I've touched the sky
The earth's gravity has pulled me down
But now I've reconciled that in this world
Birds and angels get the wings to fly
If you can believe in this heart of mine
If you can give it a try
Then I'll reach inside and find and give you
All the sweetness that I have
At this point in my life

Life is the art of drawing without an eraser.

Row your boat

We all at one time in our childhood sang this song. Depending on where you were brought up, you either sang it ;

Row, row, row your boat
Gently down the stream
Merrily, merrily, merrily, merrily,
Life is but a dream.

or

Drive, drive, drive your car

Gently down the street

Merrily, merrily, merrily, merrily,

Life is but a treat.

Back then it was a just rhyme that we so much enjoyed. The words didn't make much sense then as they do now. I want to beleive that the composer had more in mind than just some girl/boy (am gender sensitive) rowing a boat down a stream.

Most of us have never been on a boat so i will use the car version to dissect the lyrics.

drive drive drive your car - simply put ...get moving or get on with life, live your life

gently down the street - be cautious, do it without harming/hurting others or the environment

Merrily merrily merrily merrily - note its repeated four times......so be happy, enjoy your life, be joyful

life is but a treat/dream -  we all have dreams and ambitions ....so chase your dreams, follow them

Its just a nursery rhyme but it carries a lot of meaning if you really think about it.

Signing off.....

Jaxon

A mothers Love.

Tommorrow is mother's day, a day to honour and thank God for our mothers. Personally I thank God every day for my mom. She's my guardian angel,a comforter and pillar of strength. Together with my dad, she has brought us up in the best way she could. Always sacrificing her needs to make sure that we never lacked in any way, always comforted us when all seemed gloom. I love you Mama.

I could go on and on about her but I hope this poem sums up what I feel about her.

Mom, you're a wonderful mother,
So gentle, yet so strong.
The many ways you show you care
Always make me feel I belong.

You're patient when I'm foolish;
You give guidance when I ask;
It seems you can do almost anything;
You're the master of every task.

You're a dependable source of comfort;
You're my cushion when I fall.
You help in times of trouble;
You support me whenever I call.

I love you more than you know;
You have my total respect.
If I had my choice of mothers,
You'd be the one I'd select!

"Honor your father and your mother, so that you may live long in the land the LORD your God is giving you."

Signing off....

Jaxon

Snippets of my life

I am what you would call a closet writer. I have been writing since I learned how to, thanks to Mrs.Gachengo my elementary school teacher of English. She would make me stand in front of the class and read out my composition to all. I hated it  then but as time has gone by, am filled with nothing but appreciation for her.

I get inspiration from the things that surround me; music, art, neighbors and the random guy on the street. Whenever something is troubling me, I write it down, but not so directly.  A combination (remix) of lyrics from some of my favorite songs is the stuff that my writing is made of. Maybe if you follow me here u will realise what am talking about.

I grew up in Kagumo College(kagz) in Nyeri and am what my mates would refer to as a bushie. I don't remember who came up with that name but we took to it so fast and are proud of it. To be reffered to as a bushie you had to play basketball or at least show some interest in the sport. We grew up watching NBA and practising the moves on the court. At that time it never occurred to us that we were vertically challenged. Our
tallest player "Mrefu" was hardly six and a half feet tall! But all in all we were a force to reckon with in the region. Up to this date, if you mention "Rimshakers" to anyone who cares about basketball in Nyeri, you will be told of the legend.

In my hood almost every one had a nick name, mine was prezzo.Some of my friends still call me this despite my many attempts to "burry" it. The origin of that name is a story for another day but you can imagine reaction my when I am walking in town in the company of workmates and some chic approaches and goes like "sasa prezzo!" .

I had a great childhood as did all the bushies .......I am a bushie by birth and also the fact that my old folks still reside in kagz. As they say once a bushie, always a bushie!

Why Jacaranda Street??....Well, for starters, its a street in Kagz. Its most beautiful in November, around graduation time, with all the purple flowers adorning the canopied road.



Signing off..........

Jaxon